remember to feel real

Friday, March 31, 2006

Sighs, ]':
~~Im missing everything of you.~~
everything, everything. ]':

30-03-06, Thursday
Ytd was trashy. *Super trashy!
My face was like freaking black &I didn't talk much. Woots!
I sighed a lot instead! ]':

But, things got a lot better after the mock paper. [[:
~~i finally got his number!~~ *hurray!
Weeeeee, I was so so so high then. xD

31-03-06, Friday

Was pretty screeeeewed up today.
Many many things happened. ]':
Like shit, please.

You seriously spoilt my day! *hell you!
If you're to rip her mouth, rip mine first. (:
I was enuffing stupid to tell you all those shit!

~~I should be angry with you for lying to me, like nobody's business, okay! * hell you!~~

~~Thanks for making me wait like a fool! *FCUK YOU!~~

Speech day rehearsal, was so boring boring.
Thanks to my stupid gastirc. *boo

~~&& He was standing at another end of the contigent. Boo! I can't see him clearly.~~

Had finale thingy after that.

~~woots! lalalas~ I saw him &&he was sitting like behind me. [[: (not right behind me though)~~
Freaked out when I saw __ involved in the dance thingy too. *pssf!

ROLL EYES! >:/

Went home after training.

~~I saw him again in the basement!! [[: &&I walked past him! woots! he's super cute.~~

~~haha! xD he dropped his PE tee on the very very dirty floor then he immediately picked up and smell his tee.~~

~~Super cute expression, please. xD lalala! Then then, he was walking in front of me when walking out of the school! Woots!~~

Cried really really badly when I reached home.

~~im so so scare that he's going to ignore me.>:'{ NO NO! Please don't do that to me!!~~

Sigh, all this shucks!

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

I got so many many things to say! [[:

I'm super happy, again (?) [[:

lalalalas*

I love AIRWALK! Yeahness, grins*

You know what? [i dont want to tell you]

I'm just super happy larh! xDDDDD

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

I'm enuffing HAPPY!! xD
Woots*
~~he's uber cute. i hearts him many many!~~

Monday, March 27, 2006

Im fcuking sick!
My nose, like a spoilt tap you can find anywhere in the bin.
My throat, like millions of ants crawling.
I'd really want to stuff either one of my finges in and scratch real hard.
I know it sounds rather disgusting larh, but I don't care.
My eyes, like a pool of water.
Whole body, super hot. T_T;
So giddy, like fainting. :'/

Ms Chew was absent.
Therefore, Mr TYS came with his worksheets.
He's enuffing nagging, can?
I'd really like to throw something at him if he starts nagging again.

Recess, I saw <3s. xD
~~but feeling isn't that anymore ]':~~

Got back Eng holiday hmk.
Woots! Guess how much I scored. [[:
5/50 equals total gayness, please.
yah yah, I left a lot of blanks.
& I didn't complete the whole summary part.

Chemistry remedial after school.
Super trashy,please.
Mrs Heng dearest was talking(screaming) at the top of her voice.
Phew* Luckily, I imgrated all the way to my back before she starts her lesson.
Or my poor ears gonna suffer A LOT!

She torn Justin's notes in front of us, like wth(?) most of us freaked out.

Things I learnt are as follow:
1) Don't be a piece of meat.
2) Man can work. (?)
& blah blah blah. I seriously don't remember what I've learnt.
An hour &15mins, I think I learnt nothing.

Met Shermin and Wenxin at Mac after remedial.
Wenxin left then the rest of us had tuition as usual.

blah blah blah.
you're right, we're uncompatible.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

ahhhh! shitt my leg is so numb numb numb.
I can't stand up! ]:

Is the background sound too loud?
hahahahah! orbi quack!
lower down the volume of your speaker, sweetiesss..
hahaha.

She's SICK all over her body!

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the cat;

the dogs;

all animals shall attack her when she's out on the street! fcuk her! BOO you!
that's another poor rabbit got abused by her. T_T; go to meiyang's . blog to look for the link.

My right eye is so so so red.
Sigh- ]':
I want to die!

~~cryingmyselftobed=sleeplessnight.~~
whenyou'rehappy=i'mhappy. (:

Friday, March 24, 2006

HELLO! xD Cynthia is back in action! T_T hahaha!
Be prepared,okay.
It's gonna be a pretty long blog entry. [[:
-weekly updates.

So it goes like this..
Monday
School re-opened. [[: Yeahness*
It's the odd week for the new term but I mistaken it as the even week.
How dumb! haha. First period was, hmm PE but Mr Kang was absent. [luckily2, i didn't bring my PE tee. Grins*] So yeah yeah! Two free periods for me to rot in class. [[: Had Chemistry after recess. :[ Boo! Super boring larh. Mrs Heng dearest nagged non-stop for like one period or so, like wth(?) When tuition after school. As usual stupid Ruiwen made a lot of noise, as in laughing out super loud!. -_-;

Tuesday
I took bus to school! Triple wows! [[:
hahaha! like so rare.
Bus-ed with Luqman, super funny.
I kept on complaing about why is there so many people boarding the bus, why is the bus to freaking slow &blah blah blah. hahaha!
Mrs Goy was absent. Woots!
&yeah yeah, no POA lesson [[:
At first was super boring. Really. Because Lt went to prepare for her band performace later during assembly &Julin Tan that little woman was having A maths. BOO!
So..Ly &I was sitting at the back of the class day dreaming. We couldn't find anything to talk. hahaha!
Then Shol & his grp was playing this BLACK MAGIC game larh. Super funny!! xD Objective of this game is to increase 'bonding' between us. hahah! like real. im crapping [[:
So so, i was so darn it bored that i went to join them. haha leaving poor Ly behind. lol! [[:
After knowing the so-called magic, we went round showing others our so-called Black Magic. haha [[: very very fun. lalalalas~

Wednesday
Nothing interesting happened.
Except there's no Social Studies lesson for one period.
Mdm Nuraida was adsent. [[:
and oh! stupid Hong yong called me teenage mutant ninga turtle.
BOO! like wth(?). So disgusting but i like. [[:

Thursday
The call in the early morning seriously spoilt my entire day. And I know I'll be dead when I'm home. ]':
LiVe lesson was interesting. [[: Mrs Goy made us formed into grp of 6 or 7 for this i-don't-know-what project haha. So yeah, there was Basirah, Shol, Izam, Fatimah, Fatihah, Shen Geng (LOL!) & Cynthia!! hahaha! [[: Our question requires us to find out more about the parliament. lalalas~ So Bas and I started crapping again. lol! like wearing beach wear and take a picture in front of the parliament house with dumb dumb looks. haha! [[: and many many more lame lame stuffs but i've forgotten. ]:
Stayed back after school to practice the dance step for the Speech day finale with Bas and Shol. [[: But it ended up to be a chit-chat lesson. The three of us chatted about everything(?) from family to friends to boyfriends/girlfriends and crushes. woots! interesting one. Esp when i comes to Shol's turn. hahah! [[: very very nice [[: When home after that, happy times won't last long. Everything was fine until the sun set. ]': super dead i tell you. Got screwed up really badly when gods know what i've done, to deserve this hell shit. ]': Phone got conficasted for no reasons. woots! and I found out I can live without my phone for one night, since my phone is so dead, no one message me. hahah! Saddening! ]': Cried like mad shit. Sigh- Called Luqman not to wait for me the next morning at the bus-stop. Cried over the phone. Hahahahahah! I think he was freaked out when he hear me cry. lol! hahahahah xD I want to laugh~!! =x

Friday
Had Gastric like the whole day? BOO!
Mrs Heng wasn't free to teach us during Chemisty lesson. YEAH! [[:
There comes Mr Ten-Years-Series. [[: He informed us that there will be a Chemistry test next Monday after school. Haiyooo~
GAH! Had recess after that, play this super dumb game with Ly,Lt and Julin. LOLs. Lt stepped on my shoe and I fall on the floor like out of a sudden. hahha! Super pain. lol! But I can't help but to laugh. hahahaha xD Lt also fall. hahah! [[:
Had training after school. [[: Speech day rehearsal and unit training. [[:
The finale thingy in the hall was fun. Except all those naggings by Mdm Zainah. BOO! ]:

When back home after training with Ain Ishak. We spent freaking 1 hr at the bus-stop to wait for bus 99? Trashy one, please. My back was aching like anything larh. So, Cynthia started to complaining like anything again. hahahah! [[: Like why is there only 99 can go to my place but no other alternatives. Which means, if all the 99s come with loaded passagers, people like us gonna wait till dead until we got a chance to board the bus, right? The both of us waited until like 7.40pm when most of the people who had trainings earlier were at home, resting/eating/watching tv &blah blah blah. So in the end, we cabbed home. hahahah! Both of us were like so dead in the cab. LOL! [[:

~~imissyoularh!]':~~
~~ireallyhateitwhenyouaskmetoleaveyou!~~
~~idontwantto! icried&criedwheneverithinkaboutyou.~~
~~iciredwhenireadallthosemessagesyousenttomeinthepast.~~
~~youtoldmethisisnotacrush.thenwhat?yousaidimtoogoodforyou.~~
~~ahhhh!imnotgoodatallokay.imnot.seriouslynotatall.~~
~~&iknow,it'simpossibleforustobetgt,now&ever.~~
~~youknowhowmuchyoumeanttome.~~
~~i'vebeencryingmyselftobedthisfewdays.~~
~~&yahiseriouslydetestallthisshit!fcuk.~~
~~ifonlyyoucanunderstand,please.~~
~~imlongingforyoutosayyoulovemeoncemore.]':~~

Friday, March 17, 2006

that must be a crush :(

[&i know, we shouldn't had started.]

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I swear my entire body is aching like anything after ATF until now.

Went straight home after the NCO course for Sec 3s while others stayed on for bbq in school,which was rather rare. hmm =/

But yah, I'm not in the mood to stay on any longer.

Oh well, it's the same old things that are strucking through my mind.

BOO!

I tell you, I don't want to think bout it anymore! ]':

[you seriously don't know how it feels to be in my shoes!]

GAH!! your call made my heart melts!

sigh- ]':

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Sec one NPCC orientation camp [[:

lalalalas~ It's over [[:
relieved relieved*

DayONE
Camp Coordinator : Jia Jun
Assistant Camp Coordinator: Basirah, Cynthia

Mr Tan JJdearest screwed me up because of my consent form thingy. He said he didn't get my form when I actually handed it in, like wth(?) in the end, he still called my mom to cerified. lalalas~ BOO!
Then we, Saliha,Shafira,Bas &I ,went Giant to get dry rations. Darn funny one, please. We were like laughing non stop larh. hahah [[:
Next was hiking. Basirah cried while walking but i-dont-know-why(?) Haiyo! ACC [[:
All of us hike all the way to BB nature park. hahahas [[: some of the sec ones were very tired. But still, they managed to complete everything. [[:
Went back to school, some had supper while some sat at the concourse. Then the CIs told us there's one more programme which we NCO didn't know.NIGHT WALK T_T Some of us freaked out! like shit,please. Somemore we are required to walk at the technical block, like wth(?) &it's already 1am in the morning.
So it goes like this, I went for the walk with leslie beside me &Saliha ma'am behind. hahaha [[: During the journey, I was like pulling leslie's sleeve and looking down at my legs. woots! urban cool lor!
Yeah, so after everything, we had our debrief which eneded ard 1.45am or something? i dont remember. Then all the NCOs when to bath and prepare for their sentry duties. woots!
Bas &I went to the red table and chair after bathing, for sentry. Like super cool, our sentry duty= sleep. hahas [[: &That night sucks, cos' there was this cat which made me so irritated. BOO! But still slept for about an hour or so.

DayTWO
Firedrill firedrill~
haha, 6am firedrill. Those sec ones were like super slow can? lol
&what's more, Basirah &I were still with our slippers on? lol. funny funny*
Lectured them with Basirah. They said I'm fierce? like wth(?) GOT MEH!!?
Then the sec ones had their PT session while Basirah &I prepared breakfast for all of them? [[: Milo for that day was super nice larh. haha [[: *secret
Did some marching after breakfast. lalalalas~ i like. [[: so fun,please.
then a lot a lot more other programmes, too lazy to type out everything.
blah blah blah~
Did reflection then home sweet home. [[:

So yeah, that's all for the camp. [[:

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

So it goes like this.. Woke up at 6.10am by Fatimah sms and I realised I was late. BOO! Then hurrily smsed/called Basirah to wake her up. Rushed to bath, packed my stuffs &off I go. Meet Basirah at the bus-stop. As usual, we ran like anything cos' we were late. hahaha [[: Boared the bus &it fking took an hour to reach the jetty at Changi. =_= like wth, enuffing s-l-o-w can? lol. I like the bump boat, it's very s-l-o-w though, but I still enjoy the ride. hahahas [[:

Pulau Ubin ((:

So we walked to the campsite with some other school behind(?)

There were like Bukit Batok, Commonwealth,Hua Yi, Fuhua, Hong Kah &of cos JVSS. [[:

Sang songs while walking &we were the only school which did singing, okay? how proud [[:

lol!

After some instrutions given at the campsite, we started off with the Tunnel.

There are actually 5 stations for us to complete larh.

Tunnel was like the most easiest station i believe. Really.

Extremly dark which also meant that we can't see anything even our fingers.

So, five of us went in. Raudhah,me,Fatimah,Basirah &Fatin respectivly.

Enuffing funny. There was a slope in the middle of the tunnel, though we knew there was a slope in front, we still fall onto each other. hahaha! xD some of us started screaming and shouting.

darn funny one, please.

There were buises on my keen caps after coming out. hahahs.

Then I did Fly Fox &mind you! CYNTHIA DID FLYING FOX! like wth(?) hahaha [[:

It's like an eight story tower and we're suppose to 'fly' from there.

woots! I'm not afraid at all can? oh-my-gawd!!hahahas. Did it with Ain. hahah.

Then we all waited at the DD (dangle duo)(?) station.

We waited like for so long until lunch time. haha.

So we went to had our lunch.

I tell you! fuck! I seriously hate that canteen! & I don't like to eat there! Those 'cute' kittens seriously made my life so fcuking miserable. :[

BOO! But i like the bananas. hahas.

Then we went to the ACT station. Before that, we belay the grp of ppl in front of us.

can die i tell you. imagine the shiny sunlight smiling at you like nobody's business. giddy giddy*

Instead of waiting any longer, we did DD.

lol! I felt so dumb. haha.

thnks to BASIRAH'S help, if not I won't be able to get up. [[:

After that, we went back to ACT. Waited for like super urban long.

& when i actually reached the top, i'm already not in the mood to play.

So, went dwn with Fatimah.

We completed only 3 stations. Which we think it's enough. [[:

hahahas.

Boared comfort bus back to sch. So spacious compared to the one in the morning. [[:

All of us slept in the bus expect BASIRAH. hahas.

She's the surviour. [[:

The driver dropped us at the bus stop instead.

not that bad.

argh! my nose and face were burnt. lol!

that's all bout ATF .

I need to go back school now for sec 3's NCO course.

lalalas~ byebye [[:

i'm craving for your kiss.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Hello folks. (:
It's 12:30 am already,
but Bas and I haven't sleep yet.
And what's more, we're camping tomorrow.
Woots! ((:
We're so hungry now! >.<;

Thursday, March 09, 2006

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus.

Hello today was another trashy day, its so sad, to know that every single other day of my life is going to be trash. (it's not b cos' of np. But yup, other stuffs) But really! And whats more, I have no freedom of thought. ]: BLAH BLAH BLAH!

Alright, I haven't complete my POA hmk. I haven't yet iron my uniform. BOO~! I'm so tired. ]:

I'm not okay! :[

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

ENUFFING HAWT/CUTE! <333333!

I LOVEHIM!!

i want to see you.

Today is probably another ~~trashy~~ day at school. lalalas~

Lessons were trashy like always. ):

But, there was whole load of fun after school!

And yup, a WHOLE load. =D WOOTS!

BASIRAH, LESLIE, ZHAN YONG &I took an 1hr 30mins PLUS to walk from school to Bt Batok nature ~~reserve~~park.

WOW WOW WOW! <33333333!!

And whats more, I love my bus journey back home. [:

[i love him]

OMG! lalalalas~

(i'm going bonkers!)

I'm prolly dying here at home now, really.

No dinner(plain lazy to eat).

so bored, please

Sunday, March 05, 2006

WOOTS!

I'm so tired can?
reached home not long ago.
did my poa hmk which took me hrs to complete it. =_= heh!
but i manage to do it myself! (with mama's help larh (: ; i called her twice. LOL!)

gotta go bathe. (:
byebye.
LOVE

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

You have been on my mind; since i saw you walking by

...

~~RAHHHHHH!~~

~~I really feel like shouting out loud, really LOUD okay!~~

~~I'm not happy~~

~~(oh well, i'm forever not happy larh)~~

I seriously don't find it a hassle staying back for NPCC's meeting everyday.

Or rather, I'm very fine with it. (:

& I'm very happy working with them<3.

I hate the sound of broken hearts.